Dreams help please? can you tell me what this means!?

Ok, so if I got it right you had a dream as a child, with some dramatic changes now as an adult since Christmas. Something happened in your life around Christmas that started this all. My guess is a traumatic experience in where the innocence of your childhood is gone. Maybe a loved one from your childhood died, a recent pregnancy, or even a big move. Something happened that made your subconscious start grieving your childhood. The best thing that you could do is grieve consciously, look at old photographs, talk to friends, maybe even cry a little, and then let go of whatever your holding onto so that both you subconscious and your conscious can move on. Best of Luck!