I really dislike my mother?! HELP PLEASE!?

I only read the words in bold letters, and a few sentences at the end. Think of life without your mother and how depressed you'd be. If only you knew the sacrifice she made to nurture your crying as a baby, changing you, bathing you and fostering your every need even if it caused her exhaustion and suffering. Go back and think, and be thankful you have her. PS. never say you "want to kill someone online, or in person" Be careful what you say.